Updates and my thoughts

还是那句话 "so long nv update le.."
well, Good news is, i received letters from both NTU and NUS! granted my wish with my 3 yrs effort in NYP.. Going University was one of my wish during secondary sch.. to me, going uni was like kinda impossible for me as i always thought that uni is only for JC ppl and a handful of poly students. What pushed and motivated me to study hard to enter uni was my father.. seeing him working so hard day and night makes me 心痛.. breathing carbon monoxide and other toxic gases.. just to support the 3 pigs at home.. i don't know wat motivates him to work so hard for us.. i just see no enjoyment in his life.. just a workaholic or a machine.. how sad.. I've wasted 1 yr in secondary sch and 1 yr in poly.. compare to those Express student going JC then to Uni. I could have graduated 2 yrs earlier T_T but anyway i'll do my best in Uni just like wat i did in poly.. eventually, get a stable job, help him support the family.. so that he wun have to work so hard aimlessly without enjoying..

finally, graduated from poly! looking back, i've graduated from my 4th school and my sis is still in her primary sch.. haha.. though it sounds silly but it really show me how far i've gone through.. aiya.. nobody will understand how i feel.. haiz..

Graduated with a gpa of 3.663 didn't manage to get into merit so sad.. but glad that Raymond got the 3rd position with bronze award! and zhu tou got into merit! Congrat! 2 of them deserved wat they have got.. me too.. deserved a non-merit cert.. lol.. coz i'm lazy! laziness fault! not my fault =X

graduation day wasn't a memorable one.. lol.. coz didnt manage to get raymond and kim ann they all to take photo with them.. some of them didnt even went for the graduation -_- .. was tied up with 2 families oso.. so cant go far to take nicer pictures.. T_T and the ceremony was a boring one.. sitting alone.. no one to talk to as raymond and zhutou were sitting far away with all the merit student.. saded

sometimes i could feel tat our relationship is going up and down.. i think i'm emo and thinking too much.. or wat? how i wish i can be like zhu tou happily enjoy being together with his partner without thinking much... but i cant! i'm born to be thinking a lot... sometimes i oso think that why cant just leave our relationship to ourselves and stop adult from bothering? our relationship could be better without their interference.. not physically.. but mentally.. not everything can be solve by just speaking to one another.. sometimes things are not supposed to be spoken.. nobody can understand me!! i admit tat we doesn't share the same interest , he loves gaming and i loves shopping, he is a very homey person and i'm not... he will be going NS, i'll be studying in Uni, lesser time for each other and i dun know wat might happen to us, can we last? i feel tat and know that he loves me more than i love him.. and i really dunnoe why! *i'm not a gd gf X_X* although i really like to be with him but seems like we need a lot more time to know each other well and most importantly know wat ur partner is thinking.. really really hope we can last.. and i know we can as long as our bond are strong.. just like raymond and i, sometimes we have mo qi and i think mo qi needs time to build up.. i have so much so much to say... but say to who? nobody will understand me, and obviously cant share with zhutou..
zhu tou is very determined tat we can last forever .. how i wish i can be like him and stop my bad habit *think too much*

in conclusion, he needs more time to understand me becoz i'm woman! not easy to understand i suppose.. and i can easily understand becoz he is pure and innocent like a kid! haha.. hope everythings goes well.. and i must be very determined as well.. JIAYOU CHU JUN!!